Heartbeats, Screen Names, and Undecided Love

When I see your name in bold print,

on the side of my screen,

my heart starts to beat faster,

my hands get warm,

I get dizzy,

and people think I'm sick.

Are they right?

What's happening?

What can I do?

I'm just naive with my heart, I guess.

People think I'm joking,

when I say I'm in love with you,

they say, "You've never met him!"

"How do you know he cares?"

But I can see what they can't,

I can see a connection.

Between us,

like a lifeline.

They say, "You're too young to fall in love."

What do they know?

They say, "This is a phase- it will pass."

I don't agree- I think it will last.

Maybe I am young.

Who cares?

Maybe I'm naïve with my heart.

I care.

I've been hurt before,

maybe that's why you say what you say,

but I don't want to believe that,

I want to believe that you love me, too.

How can I know for sure?

I've never seen you before.

But I trust you.

With all my heart and soul.

You were in love with another,

then you got a devastating blow.

I did my best to comfort you,

and the other, too.

Now that I've confessed,

she hates me.

I do not blame her,

but I don't understand her, either.

I don't understand any of this!

My friends say, "How do you know he's fifteen?"

"What if he's a predator?"

I know that's not true,

I can see it in your answers.

Please, I trust people too easily.

I usually hold my walls up,

strong around my heart.

But you got through,

beside my defenses.

I don't know how,

I don't know if you feel the same way.

I want to believe you.

I do believe you.

Believe me, too.

Why am I so challenged?

You are my rock,

my confidante,

I can tell you anything,

and you can trust me, too.

I promise.