my eyes drift.
I feel a chill run over my body.
I can't explain this.
I wake up, knowing I can't keep starving myself
but I can't eat.
my body shakes.
my knees clamp together;
the muscles flex involuntarily.
my body won't listen to me.
I perspire.
something's wrong with me.
I don't have any control.
I'm shaking.
I could cry.
I'm going to cry.
tears are going to fall.
my body tightens,
fits itself into the smallest possible space.
I'm shaking.
Something's going wrong.
Something's not working.
something…
something.