my eyes drift.
I feel a chill run over my body.
I can't explain this.
I wake up, knowing I can't keep starving myself
but I can't eat.
my body shakes.
my knees clamp together;
the muscles flex involuntarily.
my body won't listen to me.
I perspire.
something's wrong with me.
I don't have any control.
I'm shaking.
I could cry.
I'm going to cry.
tears are going to fall.
my body tightens,
fits itself into the smallest possible space.
I'm shaking.
Something's going wrong.
Something's not working.