i taught myself how to cry
oceans; the biggest fucking tears
you'd ever fucking see, if you'd
just look at me dead on
once in a while. they
burn my lips, but the taste is
so worth it - saltwater taffee,
which i never liked as a kid but
lately, i've been wanting those
years back something fierce.
i am here and this is now and
i can't fucking handle it, so i
lie on my bedroom floor in the
dark and just fucking cry.
my eyes hurt and my lips hurt and
i feel so much like a kid, now, that i
don't even wipe my nose when it runs.


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