I'll admit it, I do want to go back.
I want to have what we did before.
No matter what you do to me,
Everyday, I seem to want you even more.
I know it's wrong to still want you
After the hell you put me through.
But I just can't help it,
I'm just sorta drawn to you.
I know it would be in my best interest
To not have a relationship with you.
But despite what everyone says,
I want so desperately to be with you.
Loving you is like a habit I can't break.
Even though I have reasons to hate you,
I still seem to care for you, and worse,
I still crave for you and I still trust you.
Over and over again, people tell me
"You're only going to be hurt again."
Even though I sit and listen,
I never seem to learn my lesson.
But they are right, I know they are.
You have proven that to me, repeatedly.
But I just can't seem to find the strength
To fight this hold you have over me.
I think I'm going crazy…
What have you done to me?!
I don't even know myself anymore,
This is worse than ever before.
Will you just be with me?
Even if it is all just a fucking lie…
I don't think I would be able to tell the difference.
My mind can no longer differ between fantasy and reality.
You sit there, staring at me
With that taunting sexy smirk of yours.
I long to kiss those lips of yours,
To feel your hands all over me.
But no, this is something that will never happen.
Why? Because you don't care about me!
I will eventually come to terms with that,
But until then, I am lost in memories and fantasies…
I am slowly losing touch with the world around me
And it is all because of you.
I don't mean to blame you for my insanity,
But it's the truth.
Life has become even more harsh
Now that you no longer want me.
I just wanna be rid of this burden,
Move on and be free…