I am alone in this cold world

It's My Life

I am alone in this cold world

Where I had the misfortune to be born

My friends have deserted me

In this life full of forlorn

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Friends are the family

We choose for ourselves

A good life is out of reach

Placed too high on the shelves

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I've been poor all my life

Never had anything as good as them

They say I get too jealous

But wouldn't you if your life was so grim?

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I still wear the same clothes I had years ago

I don't have the money to buy any more

My friends say my dress sense is atrocious

But theirs would be too if they were poor

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So now I'm alone

Just myself for company

My friends are past caring

My mum I never see

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I'm always working

Just so that we can survive

While my friends go out

And have fun with their lives

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My friends can all afford to go shopping

I can never afford anything they get

I never have been able to

Ever since we met

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Now they all dislike me

For something out of my control

They seem unable to understand

That in my depression they have a roll

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Now I'm seriously depressed

I want my life to end

All because of some stupid friends

Driving me round the bend

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Now I dread the lunch hour

I dread any time they're near

I'd rather be alone all the time

For my anger is what I fear

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I don't want to hate my friends

I don't want to say something I don't mean

But the way they've treated me recently

Makes me want to remain screened

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I don't want to be near them at all

They don't understand my life

They'll never know what it's like to be me

With my parent's ongoing strife

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My life has always seemed harsh

And I don't know what I've done

Why does everyone else get it so easy?

At times I just want a gun

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To end it all now is the easy way out

I don't like being alone

I don't like having no friends

I don't like the agony filled groans

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My head hurts from all the shouting

My body is weak from all the work

I'm trying to live a normal life

When really my life is berserk

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Everything seems to be going wrong

The friends I could trust have all died

I'm only a school child forced to grow up

In a society filled with cruel lies

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The pain that flows from my heart

Every day and every night

Would be enough to make adults scared

For me it is quite a fright

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My life has never been easy

The pain will never go away

The memories I have of the bad times

Are always here to stay

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I hope to have more good times

They may make the bad seem less

But I know that because of my childhood

My whole life will be a mess

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I'm trying to get some good grades

I'm trying to hide all the pain

My friends don't know the real me

My friends never see the tear stains

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My parents don't really care about me

I'm always left out of everything

My dad told me he never wanted to see me again

After my mum he gave a ring

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My mum goes away every weekend

My dad doesn't live here now

My brothers and sisters all have a good life

My dad just thinks I'm a cow

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My mum told me she didn't want me

I was just a stupid mistake

She never even loved me

If she went back in time my life she would not make

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I feel so alone and depressed all the time

I have nobody left to rely on

All I wanted was a simple life

Now I want my life to be gone.