Married Man

I find now that the more I want, the more it hurts
Even though I only see your good sideā€”the fun and the flirt

I don't have to deal with the restless mornings or tired nights
The day to day living, the silent fights
All the little aggravations
I see only a prepared and planned presentation

The guard is never down
Always the smile, I never see the frowns
She gets it all, your whole existence
She accepted it all with no resistance

So I sit here alone, most of the time
With my memories and this damn rhyme
Wondering if you could have shared your life with me
And if you've already thrown away my key

(age 18, the Wanderer didn't tell me he was married till after I was way, way in love)