Dead Space
i'm trying my hardest to feel better
- - - - - - - - but I'm scared out of my mind
- - - - i've never ever felt like this before
it's never been like this
- - - - - - - - - - - - - so what does that mean?
- - - - - - - - - - - - - what do I do?
- - - - - - - - - - i feel like I'm suffocating
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - because I have too much air
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- - - - - - - - - - I WANT TO FEEL
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - anything but this hollowness
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I can actually sense it permeating my skin
As if everyone can see it as clearly as I can
I have nothing left.
Did I ever have anything at all?
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"it's so disappointing to find out that the magic was not really meant for you"
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maybe it's my own selfish disbelief
- - - - but how can the world continue on?
- - - - - - - - when I'm here, falling apart?
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- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - nothing makes it better,
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - i can never make it grow
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - to the breaking point
I miss this.
scene-by-scene
layer by layer
I hope to
fade away…
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- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - won't even allow myself
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - to feel the exhaustion
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - without the pain
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- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - am I forgetting?
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - or is this as far
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - as I can go?
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(really) what is the point?
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i want to be grateful
i want to see this through
but i can't see past this
or get back to you
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All I can be is just me.