Dead Space

i'm trying my hardest to feel better

- - - - - - - - but I'm scared out of my mind

- - - - i've never ever felt like this before

it's never been like this

- - - - - - - - - - - - - so what does that mean?

- - - - - - - - - - - - - what do I do?

- - - - - - - - - - i feel like I'm suffocating

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - because I have too much air

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- - - - - - - - - - I WANT TO FEEL

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - anything but this hollowness

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I can actually sense it permeating my skin

As if everyone can see it as clearly as I can

I have nothing left.

Did I ever have anything at all?

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"it's so disappointing to find out that the magic was not really meant for you"

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maybe it's my own selfish disbelief

- - - - but how can the world continue on?

- - - - - - - - when I'm here, falling apart?

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- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - nothing makes it better,

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - i can never make it grow

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - to the breaking point


I miss this.


scene-by-scene

layer by layer

I hope to

fade away…

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- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - won't even allow myself

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - to feel the exhaustion

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - without the pain

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- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - am I forgetting?

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - or is this as far

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - as I can go?

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(really) what is the point?

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i want to be grateful

i want to see this through

but i can't see past this

or get back to you

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All I can be is just me.