My stomach is aching with
a 5-day binge. I won't puke.
I never do, but the heavy
weight stirring in stomach
is disturbing, disgusting even.
I want to tear out my innards,
remove my guts and lighten
my body. But my stomach
will stay as heavy as always,
and new binge will replace old.
Trapped in a mindless cycle:
Gorging myself on self-insanity.

A/N Gorge (noun) the contents of the stomach especially when perceived as rising in the throat out of disgust
Gorging (verb) to eat something greedily and excessively.