Chapter 4

You're no rapist, are you?

"What?!" Linh screeched. I gaped. She had hit him? Really?

"I did. I slapped him. Who would ever have thought I could do it? I wouldn't," she said proudly.

"Oh. My. God!" Linh grabbed one of Angel's arms and shook her a little. "Tell me everything!" The other students were in their next classes by now so we could talk freely and not be afraid of anyone hearing. I didn't care about ditching class, this was way too good to miss.

"Okay, okay. Relax."

I hurried to class and sat down in my usual seat; beside Jake. His chair was turned away from me, as always. He was talking to one of his friends, Chad I think. They were laughing and talking about their latest girls.

"Dude, what's been up with you anyway? You haven't had a girl lately," Chad said, sounding confused. Now that I thought about it I could see what he meant. Since school had started again, I hadn't seen him with that many girls. There was a week where he had two, but other than that, none. Not one single girl and he seemed content enough, not that I really knew since I wasn't friends with him.

"I don't know, I guess I just… don't really want one," Jake said, slightly hesitating. Chad looked disbelieving at him.

"Really? You don't want a girl? That's so not you Jake!" He was looking at Jake like he was a monster or something. So rude! Jake shrugged.

The teacher, Ms. Beulund, came running through the door and I realized that class should have begun five minutes ago. She began the lecture, but I wasn't listening. Normally my eyes and ears would be glued on her, but not today. Why, I didn't know. Even if I had a lot on my mind I could normally forget it when she was teaching, but today my head felt like it was spinning and I couldn't concentrate.

I thought about Delilah. She was so sweet when Linh told her that she had slept with him. Usually people thought really bad of her because of it(or hated her if they had a crush on him), but Delilah didn't. And she had slapped him! It scared me a little bit, think of what else she was capable of. But at the same time it was cool, so I had no idea what to think about it. I wish I could just hit somebody like that, but I was scared of doing it. If I could do it I was sure I would be proud and afraid.

"Class, we will continue with this subject tomorrow and I will quiz you about what I have said today. I have to leave now since my daughter is in labor. You're free to go." I panicked. I hadn't been paying attention at all and I hadn't been taking notes. I had no idea what Ms. Beulund had said. No idea. What am I going to do? Right now I wished I hadn't been raised never to swear. I needed swearwords right now. Shit, crap, dammit, fuck. God, I'm pathetic. I was trying to swear and I could only come up with four words? I needed notes. I looked around me and noticed that the only people still in the classroom were three giggling girls I was sure hadn't been listening either, Chad who never took notes because he had the best memory in history and Jake. Jake always took notes, he cared about school so why wouldn't he? Oh God, I have to talk to Jake.

He was packing his bag pack while chatting with Chad. I walked up behind him and hesitantly patted his shoulder. He turned around a surprised look on his face when he saw me.

"Can I borrow your notes? I kind of tuned Ms. Beulund out today so I didn't write my own," I said. He looked confused at me.

"I'm sorry, who are you?" He asked puzzled. I gaped at him. We had been sitting next to each other for two years and he don't know who I am? How could he not? We had talked sometimes, well nothing big just 'this is so boring' 'yes, you're right', but I still thought he should at least know my name or know that I was the girl sitting next to him. I was surprised when I felt rage building up inside me and I had to fight the urge to glare at him. I was both angry and… hurt.

"I've been sitting next to you for two years, how can you not…" I trailed off, not knowing what to say to him.

"Really? Are you sure?" he asked while running his hand through his hair. How could he just… be like that?! The rage became bigger and I were almost sure I was going to explode. And then it just… happened. I saw my hand glide through the air and hit him across the cheek with a slapping sound. I'm sure I looked just as shocked as he did. I felt pride and horror at what I had done. It was so unlike me.

"Sorry. I'm so very sorry, please forgive me. I don't know what happened," I said and my hands flew to my face before I ran out of the room. I hurried toward the class Linh and Delilah had together. Oh my God, what had I done?! My feelings were ambivalent. Every second they changed; right now horror dominated my feelings. When I were really close to the classroom, I could see that they had just been let out and now my feelings were dominated by pride. Linh and Delilah came out together and stopped when they saw me.

"I did it, I did it, Delilah!" I yelled. Both of them looked confused.

"What did you do, Angel?" Linh asked, frowning.

"I slapped him."

"Did he really say that?" Linh asked, unsure. Angel nodded sadly. Linh threw her arms around her.

"He's cruel, don't listen to him," she soothed. I could see that Angel was both happy and really hurt right now and I felt uncomfortable. I didn't' know them good enough to try and help and even if I did I was really bad at that kind of thing. I never knew what to say or do when something happened. If Rebecca was sad, Kathy soothed her and if Kathy was sad, Rebecca soothed her. If I was sad they both soothed me. I wasn't a soothing person, I was the person they asked for advice about everything. That was what I was good at, making the right decisions. Well, only when I wasn't angry… They even wanted boy advice from me and they had both had more boyfriends than me. I had only had two relationships, one that was very unserious when I was 14 and a relationship that lasted half a year when I was 16. Rebecca and Kathy had both had a lot of boyfriends and Rebecca wasn't even a virgin anymore. But me and Kathy was.

"Uhh, I have to go home, but I guess I'll just see you tomorrow?" I said and Linh nodded. I hurried home where I laid on the couch. I felt kinda bad that I had got her to hit him. No one believed she could, that must mean something.Like she's completely innocent (I don't mean in a sexual way even though I think that too) and I took that from her; I took her innocence. God I felt bad, but good too, like I had taught a child to do something pride worthy. Arrgh… Why can I never just have one feeling? This is so confusing, I hate myself!

"Hey sis. Why the sad face?" Ben said when he walked into the room. He sat down on the floor, watching me. I sighed and held my head in my hands.

"I got Angel to hit Jake today," I muttered. There was silence for a few seconds before Ben talked again.

"Jake? The kissing freak?" I giggled into m hands and it came out sounding weird. He took that as a yes.

"Okay… Wait, did you say angel? Sometimes I'm afraid you've gone mental. Last time I checked we didn't exactly believe in angels," he said 100 percent serious. This time I laughed.

"I haven't gone mental, thank you very much. Her name is Angel."

"Oh, you could just have told me that…" He looked relieved. Did he really think I had gone mental and even if I had, then it's not that weird to believe in angels."I did, you just didn't understand."

"Because you didn't tell me. You said you got an angel to hit Jake."

"No, I didn't. You just can't remember I said I got Angel to hit Jake." I knew I was right, so why couldn't he just admit it? He should've cause now I begin to get dangerous, as in my temper is awaking.

"I can't remember cause you did not say it that way."

"Yes I DID!" I shouted. Damn, he was so annoying! Couldn't he just shut up? He looked taken aback. Maybe because I hadn't yelled already, so he thought I wasn't going to? Dammit, why was I even here? He was so stupid, he always made me mad. I ran out of the house and grabbed my coat on the way. I decided to just take a walk.

After awhile it seemed so silly; it was a stupid argument, it was even silly. How could I get so worked up about something like that? I sighed and looked around me. I was father away from the house than I liked, which meant that I had absolutely no idea where I was. Damn it! I had walked straight into a park ad I was now right in front of a beautiful lake. I sat down on a bench with a good view to it. Small ducks were swimming around in the blue water and everything felt harmonious. Harmoniously? C'mon Delilah, you're lost for god's sake! I sighed aloud.

Suddenly a guy ran by, he was in a training suit and was listening to music on an iPod. It was Jake. He was my neighbour and he lived here, which of course meant that he could help me home.

"Jake!" I shouted. He didn't stop and he was running pretty fast so I got up and ran after him.

"Jake, JAKE!" He stopped and took his earplugs out before turning around. He looked confused when I stopped in front of me, breathless. My stamina sucked! At last looked up at him and saw a gorgeous smile lightning his face. I was in awe. He was so beautiful; I completely understood why nobody said no to him… I shook my head to clear it and then spoke.

"Um, sorry to bother you, but I'm kinda lost and I hoped you could help me home…" And then he laughed. He laughed. There was nothing funny about this, how could he laugh?

"It's not funny! Stop laughing!" He tried and after a couple of seconds you couldn't that he had been laughing.

"Sorry, it's just… You're lost? And you ask the jerk who kissed you for directions?" He smirked.

"Well, you're no rapist, are you? " I asked sarcastically. I shook his head chuckling.

"C'mon, I'll get you home." I smiled brightly at him.

Hey guys! Yeah, I know I'm late again, but I think this will just be the pace I'm writing at. Maybe this chapter seem short, but it's longer than last chapter! Well, tell me what you think!

Anonymous review reply:

lizeej: Sorry there isn't that much reacion from Jake, but at least you got to hear why Angel slapped him! ;)