coeur casse by Disneyluver

Summary: Hi! You are probably wondering why the heck this story has been updated. Because of some circumstances and it being four years since I wrote it in the first place, I am giving it a makeover. This means that I am fixing up the titles and switching a few songs as well as changing people's names around. The reason for either the song(s) chosen and/or the title will be explained in each chapter's summary.

This story is about the emotions that I went through when my first then-boyfriend dumped me on September 21, 2001. It is like an introduction to "Ultimate You" so you will know where I'm coming from. The title means 'broken heart' in French I don't own "The reason" lyrics, which are in italics. If you are wondering why I chose that song it is for the lines I found a reason for me, to change who I used to be, a reason to start over me". If you think that I should have a different song in it, just let me know in a review and I will change it. These are actual events that happened to me. Names have been distorted to protect people's privacy. I wrote this in summer 2004 as my one -year anniversary gift on fictionpress. Please don't flame me and please read and review. Thank you

As the three year mark gets closer, I sometimes wish that I that I could go back in time to warn myself about what was going to happen that unlucky day ten days after the attack on the World Trade Center at about 3:03 in the afternoon

It was a Friday and as I heard the bell ring, I jumped out of my seat, grabbed my backpack and walked down the steps that lead out to my high school's combination playground/parking lot to catch my bus. I was feeling great. I had my job in a movie theater to look forward to and next week, the theater was going to get "Zoolander". I didn't know that my happy balloon was about to burst.

I was about to walk out the door when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around and saw my boyfriend, Drew, there.

"Can I talk to you, Alexis?" he asked me.

"Sure," I said

"Look, it's been over a year that we have been going out," he began to say and I nodded, wondering what was on his mind. "You've been given that line before?"

"What line?" I asked him, confused.

He sighed. "You haven't had any other boyfriends before me?"

"Nope." I shook my head.

"Well I think we should break up." He said and my jaw dropped

"Wh-What?"

He went into this long explanation about stepping beyond his own backyard. While Drew was talking, his words hurt me more than a bee sting my heart felt like it had just shattered into a million little pieces

'No, this can't happening, ' I thought. 'I can't believe it. He's breaking up with me'. I could not start crying, even though that's what I felt like doing since people would label me the eleventh grade crybaby.

"Alexis, are you okay with this" he asked me. His words brought me back to reality so I put on a fake smile and told him,

" That's fine with me, Drew. I-I have to go catch the bus. S-see you Monday " I said and then I rushed out the door and onto my bus, trying to hold back the tears. I didn't even notice that the bus had left the school as a wave of emotions flooded my mind.

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why i need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

And the reason is you

And the reason is you

And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

Why did he dump me? After all that had happened?

Our date at the theater that I worked at, seeing "Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back".

Seeing the second Pokémon movie with him and trying to decipher the Ancient Mew card with him at a nearby fast-food place afterward

Having our picnic at the park and him trying to explain DragonBallZ and DragonBall to me.

Was I a horrible girlfriend? I never cheated on him, never flirted with another guy, never made him jealous.

Then as the bus pulled to my house it suddenly hit me as if someone had hit some sense into me with a gigantic mallet:

He wanted to move on to French Kissing, breast touching, that sort of deal (and had tried it a bunch) whereas I wanted to move at a slower pace.

When I got home, I decided to make a pact. I swore on Royal Blue Peanut (a very rare Beanie Baby)'s royal blue fabric: no more boyfriends. I didn't need my heart to be broken again, as this wound would take a long time to heal.

I became depressed. I didn't attend the Harvest Moon dance. I ate like there was no tomorrow despite the fact that I knew that that would just fill up my stomach, but not the empty hole where my heart used to be. Being in the drama club and having my job at the theater were the only things that made me happy and forget about Drew and what he did to my heart. Little did I know I would re-meet up with love in the school year of 2002-2003 at a boarding school called RV

The End (at least for the prologue)

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