Watch it as it drips,

Watch it as it drips,
All my love for you,
I sit here as it burns,
And it's all for you.

Why did I have to do this?
Everything was perfect,
Except inside my mind,
I always have to torment.

Watch it oh so red,
Those pretty little droplets,
It's the only thing I feel,
Aside my my own torture.

You never know what,
You have until it's gone,
I'll never get you back,
I feel so far from home.

Oh my god, it hurts,
But I love the way I'm feeling,
At least I love the ache,
That isn't my heart bleeding.

Please never forget me,
And everything we had,
I'll always remember you,
You're always in my head.

God, I'm so pathetic,
As I lay here in my floor,
Watching it all go,
Watching my life pour.

You're so amazing, angel,
I now remember us,
I should have realized earlier,
God, you mean so much.

I look at all your pictures,
As I create this sin,
I look at all my failures,
As my psyche starts to win.

I cannot live my life,
So far away from you,
So I think I'll sit,
And bleed away this doom.

I keep replaying things,
That you said inside my head,
And because you said you loved me,
I'll cry this pretty red.

No one else could ever,
Compare to you enough,
I don't know what I'll do,
Aside from masochistic lust.

You are the only one,
That can really help me now,
But you are so far gone,
I don't know my way out.

And oh my god, I'm numb,
To all but two things,
My realization, love for you,
And this paralyzing sting.

It's all that I can really,
Seem to do right now,
So I guess I'll lay here,
And bleed my broken heart out.

I hate that I have hurt you,
I hate I lost control,
I hate my impussiveness,
I look at what I owe.

I owe myself a lot,
Because of hurting you,
I owe my self some beatings,
I think I'll go past two.

I know that if you hear this,
You would probably be mad,
But baby, I can't help it,
I just feel so bad.

Wash it down the drain,
Or let it sit and dry,
Why can't normal tears,
Fall out of my eyes?

No one here can help me,
Only you, my dear,
I fear I'm too far gone,
I do not feel right here.

Take me far away,
Where you and I can stay,
Take me a million miles,
From the sound of all these cries.

The last time I saw you,
You weren't on my mind,
But now, I sit alone,
And you're all I can find.

I wish that we could talk,
You could hold me in your arms,
I wish that I could stop,
But as I said, I'm too far gone.

I always wanted the stars,
I always shot for the moon,
But now all that I know,
Is that I need you.

I know I've been so foolish,
In all that I have done,
But god, I want to make it up,
I fear I can do none.

I always craved others,
When all I loved was there,
I always tried to find myself,
In others everywhere.

I've begged for your forgiveness,
All you gave me was more time,
That I'll only use,
For my mini-suicides.

All that I can think of,
Is just how much I miss you,
And I know it's all my fault,
I know I have not been true.

Everyone is gonna,
Look so down on me,
But no, I do not blame them,
At least they can see.

I promise you that I will not last like this,
I'd do anything for one more kiss.

I have people to help me,
But none of them are you,
No one could be so perfect,
None could be so true.

I'm afraid of being alone,
I'm so lost without you,
I think now, as the sun begins to rise,
Why did I leave your side?

You'll always be inside me,
Deep, deep down within
Just like what I'm losing,
As the blade sinks in.

You'll always be much more,
Than another memory,
I cannot escape you,
You've meant so much to me.

Now I'm talking outloud,
And no one's here,
You're not there to help,
And god, I feel so scared.

I'll drink down any poison,
Devour any toxin,
Bleed out every vain,
To bring you back to me.

I know this isn't helping,
In any logical way,
But I know what I am thinking,
At least to some degree.

I've laid awake all night,
With your words within my mind,
I wish that I could cry,
Instead of act out suicide.

I listen to all these songs,
That make me think of you,
I drown now, in my misery,
All in this sick doom.

Do you remember my "five more minutes?"
Do you remember laying down?
I know that you do,
I'm the one that didn't sound.

I cannot think,
Of anyone but you,
And all of this confusion,
I hope it ends so soon.

I remember leaving,
My prom after thirty minutes,
Just to lay with you,
You made my every second.

I should have realized,
These things so long ago,
And now I feel so foolish,
I have nowhere to go.

I still have eleven roses,
You gave me a while back,
I still have your cross,
I'm wearing it around my neck.

I guess I'll stop this rambling,
But please, know it all is true,
And know that in my heart,
Is always me and you.