Every waking moment hurts me so,

Every waking moment hurts me so,
Living without you is taking its toll,
And living with you is murder in my mind,
But, good god, i just can't say "good-bye".

You currupt my thoughts,
My mind, and my reality,
Everything feels rushed,
And everything's been weakened.

I cannot remember a time without you,
Even years ago,
But, my child-like innocence then protected me,
Now, that innocence is gone.

No one can protect me,
How can i survive?
Everyone's rejecting me,
You're causing my demise.

I cannot escape you,
You're everywhere i go,
Was it me? Did i create you?
I want to make you go.

You make me act so strange,
So full of hate and anger,
You play with all my strings,
And give me this new temper.

I look at who you've hurt,
So many that i care for,
I look at what you long for,
What you crave to dismember.

You drive me to insanity,
Yet, i cannot escape this,
You cause calamity,
Of which you don't care to fix.

And i cannot get away,
No one here can help me,
Because it's not their place,
For only i can see.

You are nothing less,
And much more than they say,
You surprise my mind,
With your toxic game.

I swear to you she's real,
Not another fakened figment,
Of my own imagination,
Some one, please, fix this!

I CONTROL YOU.