I
want to be a different person,
Look through another's eyes,
I
want to be the perfect soldier,
And live my fucking lie.
I
want to be what you always wanted,
Everything you could ever
adore,
I want to be your perfect dream,
But, I'm afraid that
chapter has already ended.
I need to tear apart these walls,
I
need to simply cry,
But, I'm the perfect soldier,
And I
can't just lay down and die.
I want to know my place,
I
want to know my reason,
I just want escape,
Yet, life, I want
to keep it.
Pushed against a wall,
Forced fed all this
nonsense,
Pushed against a wall,
Losing all I ever knew.
Well,
I can make my way through this maze,
While being totally lost,
And
I can make it through your gaze,
Though your eyes put me in
thought.
This should have never happened,
It wasn't meant
to be,
Why did I fall so far,
In love so easily?
Screaming
at myself,
Asking for an answer,
And all that I get,
Is
voices with contradicting answers.
I'd kill for one more
second with you,
I'd die to save your life,
Because I am a
soldier,
And believe in sacrifice.
Cut me open one more
time,
And scream to me,
How your feeling inside,
Just to put
me in my place.
I died in your arms the last time you held
me,
I cried through my wrist the last time you rejected me.
But,
I can't dwell on this,
I have to move along,
Because I'm the
soldier,
And I must remain strong.
But,
I'm breaking,
Recreating,
All the memories,
All the
remorse.
I could be your hero,
And lead you to a place,
But
end up being evil,
And cover it with lace.
Please,
take me forgranted,
It's what you're supposed to do,
Please,
take me as a joke,
That's all that I am.
Yes,
I am the perfect soldier,
But nothing ever else,
I ruined what
we had,
And in ammo I now dwell.