feeling the dying
kisses of raindrops
on my eyelids,
each tiny pinprick
is a new shock
but my thoughts
cannot be pulled back
to the present.

"I promise always
to be here
when you wake."

tentative, persistent
touches have turned
to a hard battering,
and i am relishing
the feeling of
the wings you gave me
being torn and yesterday
being washed away.

"Don't you know that
I will love you
always and forever?"

each uncomfortable dip
in the hard ground tells me
there is only now,
and when the rain stops
i know i will lie
with rain matting my hair
until the cold freezes me
from the inside out.

i won't open my eyes
until the forever sky
is extinguished.