i wanted to fly like you

i wanted to feel so free and divine that i could find beauty in everything, like you did. i wanted to forget for a bit about everything that made me sad, everything that made me who i am. i wanted to be so overcome with joy that i couldn't hold back the hallelujah spilling from my lips.

so you took me by the hand, because you already had my heart, and you took me to a new world i'd never seen before but where i felt strangely right at home. everything was different but you were the same and that's all that mattered to me really, so i was happy and you were happy and it felt as though the world were singing just for us two, holding hands and skipping down the middle of the road, pretending that the headlights zooming towards us were stars that had fallen from the heavens.

you asked me if it hurt when i fell. i didn't understand, so you told me i was an angel and asked again if it had hurt when i fell from heaven. oh, how that made us laugh. you had this kind of glow about you, and gave me a warmth i didn't ever want to lose. so i followed you across the sky, chasing that unrequited dream of my very own 'happily ever after' and ignoring the way the shining stars cut my luminescent skin as they shot across the sky. i savored how it felt when you took my hand as you slid with me along their tails.

the night was long but our time was short and we danced on the rooftops and screamed at the top of our lungs hallelujah trying to make god hear us and answer our selfish pleas. we never did get a reply but we can just play pretend that we did, finding comfort in our shattered technicolour dreams and worn-out romantic fantasies. you had warned me not to, but i couldn't help it, and i fell. and i honestly don't know why i even tried to save myself, because we both knew all along -

i never could fly like you

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a.n. this is completely random completely weird completely shit. interpret it as you will. you can't be wrong, because even i don't know what it's about. i used lines from my poem-thing 'never forever'. no capitals because it's in the style of my thoughts and they never have capitals and always just flow on together and i always start new sentences with 'and' even though all of my english teacher's have always yelled at me for it. enjoy the product of me feeling completely worthless.