Two Directions

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My love for her is powerful

but so is my hate.

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My loyalty to her is steadfast

yet so is my treachery.

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I try to keep her going

though I know I'll be her death.

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And I'll die inside

for what I cannot tell her.

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My love brings me pain.

My hate brings me guilt.

My loyalty brings me unwanted faith.

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I want to be free from her

yet I fear the day she'll leave me.

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I want to be there for her

yet I want to run.

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And I'll die inside

for everything that I hide.

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It is a strange thing

To love one as strongly as you hate them.

To need to get out but also stay.

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I hate loving.

I hate hating.

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And I die a little each day

for what I'll never say.

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Mackenzie McConnell

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A/N: I need some help with this one. please give me advice on how to make this better.