Spineless and cruel

Spineless and cruel

I've known you for years, without really knowing you. Always showing a different face at times when necessary. Never true to me, didn't know where I had you

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You always hit me if I beat you at games

You always taunted me if I wanted to talk about it

Why would you never stand up for yourself, show me you

You're not my friend; I think I'll stop to pretend

Always impossible to grasp, slithery like a strangling snake

But you should know that you cannot make

Me lose to you, in the end

You're not my friend, I think I'll stop to pretend

I could never talk to you, about the things that bothered me. Why was that? weren't you my friend? you'd always been so kind, why did you change? Did I do something wrong, didn't I take good enough care of you? You'd always hit, my cheeks red, acting on impulses; an animal you have become.

Chorus:

You always hit me if I beat you at games

You always taunted me if I wanted to talk about it

Why would you never stand up for yourself, show me you

You're not my friend; I think I'll stop to pretend

Always impossible to grasp, slithery like a strangling snake

But you should know that you cannot make

Me lose to you, in the end

You're not my friend, I think I'll stop to pretend

It's over, finished, done with. I left you, after too much beating. You'd never told me why you'd changed from your former self. A black hole in my heart, that I cannot fill: the pain of betrayal that one was never told the reason of. I'm the one with the traumas, you're the one with the problem. A confidence the size of a grain of sand. I want to help you, but when I try to talk to you, you become so sarcastic, ironic, sickening, and I don't know how to reach through to you.

Chorus:

You always hit me if I beat you at games

You always taunted me if I wanted to talk about it

Why would you never stand up for yourself, show me you

You're not my friend; I think I'll stop to pretend

Always impossible to grasp, slithery like a strangling snake

But you should know that you cannot make

Me lose to you, in the end

You're not my friend, I think I'll stop to pretend

It's over, I said I won't pretend no more. I cannot take any more of that insecurity. The beatings that I had to endure when my parents weren't there. And I didn't tell them, until now, when I've left you. I'm the survivor, you're the victim. You're the one with the problems, that you won't let me help you with.

Chorus:

You always hit me if I beat you at games

You always taunted me if I wanted to talk about it

Why would you never stand up for yourself, show me you

You're not my friend; I think I'll stop to pretend

Always impossible to grasp, slithery like a strangling snake

But you should know that you cannot make

Me lose to you, in the end

You're not my friend, I think I'll stop to pretend