we're so distant,
i can't even tell her why
i can't sleep anymore.

i can feel
four pairs of segmented legs
with two body sections
and bloodsucking fangs
crawling all over me

and i see people assassinated
friends commit suicide
family members massacred

i'm surrounded by death
locked in its trap
and i can't get out

arachnophobia
and a schizophrenic mind
add in some misanthropy
and the ability to see death
…now you know me.