Tears blurred my vision as I sped down the damp streets. My hands were trembling beyond control on the steering wheel. The rain thundering on the roof of the car wasn't enough to keep my thoughts from overtaking me. I felt another tear roll down my cheek, soaking my jeans.
I couldn't believe it.
How could he? After two years together he wants to–
I blinked – emptying the water from my eyes – and only then did I become aware there was a person crossing the street…and I was heading straight for him.
My foot slammed on the brake and the car screeched to a stop just inches from him. I hit my forehead against the steering wheel and the car let out an ear-splitting honk.
Through the rain and hale, I could barely make out two astonished eyes staring back at me. Five seconds later, he placidly continued walking to the sidewalk. I watched him pull his hood over his head – as if that would protect him from the storm – my wet eyes still wide from horror. I almost ran him over and he's walking away?
Shaking from the tears and the thought of almost having run someone over, I dropped my head back onto the steering wheel. I couldn't see a thing anymore and the sound of my heart pounding in my chest blocked out even the rain.
I was surprised enough it was still beating. I closed my eyes but all I could see were his eyes staring back at me.
A hand went to my mouth right as a sob escaped me. It seemed like all I could do was sit there and let the endless tears drench my face. It took the only part of my brain that was still functioning minutes to realize I couldn't stay parked in the middle of the street.
I lifted my head off the steering wheel and wiped my cheeks with the back of my hand. The corners were still hiding tears but I couldn't do anything about that. My eyes flickered to the rearview mirror and I saw the guy I'd almost run over glance over his shoulder at me for just a second. The way he looked at me made me feel like I was insane.
Maybe I am…Maybe I am crazy for believing I mattered to him that much.
Or maybe I'm just stupid.
I forced air into my lungs; somehow, I managed to restart the car and continue on my way to his house.
I wasn't ready to break down quite yet.
(A/N) What goes around comes around. Please review :)
Yours till the Rain Falls,