It happened only a year ago today
But the memories are my co-existing reality
I'm feeling lonely
I want out
I see the casket and I'm crying
And there is only one thing that I've regretted
Saying to you
That night when fate drew you from me
The blade was so close
And yet I told you how I felt
I told you that you were my all
And I could be your pillow when you fall
Plunging the knife into your heart
You repeat the words, trying to let them linger
If this is what love is about, then let your blood flow upon the ground
It's useless to stay alive
Is it so much to ask?
That love mends my broken heart, rather then destroys it?
As crystalline tears turn a dark shade of red.
I wonder what it's like to die
Does it feel empty, lonely or dark?
Trace the severed fibers of my lover's heart
And tell me what you feel…
Some may say that love is the beginning,
But for me- it always marked the end
The end of life as we speak
Always comes at a constant speed
When it comes, we have no warning
For we bled at times many
We bleed for those who don't really care…
They enjoy what the pain has to offer us
But, often sob when the shoe is on the other foot
So long as it isn't them
Now you tell me, my shivering confidant
Did he rally care about me loving him?
I loved his eyes,
And his embrace
I guess you can say I was obsessed with him…
Now picture this as I stand before his deathbed
With him I was happy
But with me, he wasn't…
It was her fault
She took him away from me
She could never be me
With her showering blonde hair
And taunting blue-gray eyes
No competition to me
My hair of black and my eyes of blue
She tried my patience
I look beside him and glare
There she lies; she wanted him,
She got him
Til death do us part?
I look back down at him
Now who's holding the knife?
I believe it's me…
So did he care?