I am stuck right now
It is not your fault or mine
It is the world that bites back.
I bleed and try not to cry
But it hurts, and I look pass that.
I hear a harp, guitar and piano
With a soft voice that sings
With a silly little tune.
That brightens my day, like the sun.
It gives me a warm feeling inside
One that no one can bury in the dirt.
They may try, but it will survive.
This music can be in any language,
But it all has the same beat
Just like humans do.
I want to find my true calling
When I think I've found it
Someone close to me dies,
Or fights for there life
Or persuades me to do otherwise.
And all in a days work
I am still stuck, stuck in life
In thinking, in love.
I don't know what bothers me,
But it is something that stops me
Stops me from doing things that
I strive to do.
And like a colorful flower
I bloom and shine through
And onto others around me.
They may pluck my pedals
Or nock me down into the ground
Leave me limping away from the sun.
But I will shine, oh yes I will!
Because when you knock me down
I fight back like a spring
But with love and respect.
And as long as you show me that
Right now, I will respect you
I may ignore you, but I'll respect you.
I may feel empty inside
But I will get my feelings out!
I will free them,
Onto paper, cardboard, stone
Or the computer screen.
I will write, draw and paint
My love, pain and sorrow!
Show the world I exist.
Right now I feel stuck
Like a rat on the sticky paper
Like someone is smothering me
Like an elephant stuck in tar.
But it is the world that holds me back
Back to their standards and customs.
Away from the limits of the universe.
I am stuck right now.
But I will follow their rules
And I'll do what someone tells me
As long as it is the right thing to do.
If I don't I may be put away, shunned
From this world, or I may die
What I feel right now is pain
Pain of some sort, or possibly joy
That exceeds my limitations.
But it hurts whatever it is.
It hurts like you were told "no"
When you asked someone
You really liked out on a date.
But I won't be stuck for long.
When I have found what I am looking for
I won't be lost like a child in a store
Or a soldier at war.
I will be lifted with joy, into the skies
It will show through everything I do.
It will be good and fresh
Like a cool breeze at noon,
In the spring when the fields bloom.
I will jump the barbed wire fence
With passion like someone in love.
And when the sky pauses for me
I'll dance with pleasure
And sway with delight.
I feel love too.
But this love is not for one,
It is for the world!
Though it may be cruel
And swallow you until you are no more
It shows peace, through all the good people
And nice places.
Paradise is there, but only if you find it
Through the mud, darkness and deceit.
I won't worry my life away
Like the man who runs by
With a cell phone in one hand,
And a coffee in the other.
I won't worry about how I'll live tomorrow
When I can live today, to the hour of impression.
When I can make a legacy, today
And only today.
The tragedy is that I am lost
I am stuck.
But I will prevail,
Trough the evil days, and the blackest nights
Through creativity the truest light.
I will prevail
And it shows through everything I do.