what I want and what I need
I want to hurt, and I want to bleed.
I want to cry, and heaven help me, I need to die.
I want to hurt, so I know that this is real.
I want to bleed, so at least I'll leave a stain.
I want to cry, because I'm tired of shutting down.
I need to kill off this person I never should have been.
One day, she'll be dead, then
we'll see where we go from there.