A/N: So my book... here's the first part of the introduction, this is the only part of the book that is narrated by the mother, the rest is narrated by her daughter, Xvania. EX-VAIN-EE-UH

Introduction

My daughter asked me to write something

Something that says what I think of her life

What I think of what has happened in the past few years

She won't tell me why

She says one day I'll know

I'm not sure when that day will come

It seems like she's dying inside

But to honor her and whatever may be left of her

I write.

She's been caught up in all the bad stuff lately.

Ignoring the good, either that or she can't even see it.

I'm not exactly sure,

But maybe,

Maybe my definition of 'Good'

Isn't like hers.

Maybe all this pain and misery I've seen in her eyes,

Maybe it's 'Good' for her.

I mean who knows.

Sometimes she's happy,

And sometimes she's morose,

And then there are times when the world doesn't exist,

Or when she yells at me,

Blaming me for what has happened.

I sometimes I think she's right,

And other times I think that she just needs someone to blame,

And I'm just pitying her.

Sometimes I think I need to be harder on her

To get her to stop with all this

Nonsense.

But I know it's an addiction that

Won't stop

Unless she wants it to.