I need a reason to keep dreaming
I had one once
but I have long since forgotten it
optimism and hope and happiness
are all fleeting, fickle friends
and so I'm stuck again
discouraged, disappointed, and on the verge
of purging myself of dreams
I tried so hard to be hopeful
tried so hard to come one step closer to my passion
but my life is setback after heartbreak after sorrow
cursed to repetition, I cry
sleep hiding in the night, refusing to come
and comfort me
where do you go when your soul dies?
is there anywhere for me here?
I seemed to belong for a while
but my niche has been filled by some
skinnier, prettier, more talented girl
I tried so hard
it is too late to revive a dream
my soul has long since come crashing to the ground
falling from its lofty position among the fairies and the cloud
what do you do when you're faced with a brick wall?
nothing seems right and nothing seems worth it
I have poured all of me into my dreams
and now it feels as though there's nothing left
so do I fight to pick up the pieces
or allow the torture to continue
with the slightest chance of dreams recognized?
I refuse to compromise me for anything
except maybe my dreams?
I don't know.
what do you do when everything comes crashing down?
maybe it's time for me to wake up from these foolish dreams
and face reality, however harsh it may be
I resign myself to my fate
there is nothing left for me to do
I shall bury these dreams into the ground
and try not to let bitterness overcome me
I tried so hard, but still, I'm not good enough
I never will be
our relationship was sweet while it lasted
I've lied about my practicality for too long
i used to say i knew my dreams were impossible
but a tiny sliver of me hoped in spite of it
that hope is no more
i am doomed to be dreamless forevermore