to know you're alive
by: october lies (august 30, 2008, 6:11am)


"yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive"
goo goo dolls, iris
(october)

alone, she breaks. her body hits the floor without grace and her limbs are so scarred, they all look the same. she wonders if she'll ever be okay, and says the voices in her head are lying when they tell her it will, because this kind of pain, no, it doesn't go away. she hurts so far inside of her body, she says that it's too deep of an ache to ever fade and that she'll never be okay. secretly, she wishes and hopes that she never will, because then she could never hurt more than she already does.


introducing october, the insomniac, the self-loathing alter-ego
this goes to show that you'll never understand me entirely

(it's 9/11 today...)