I hate myself.
I hate everything.
I hate it.
I hate this.
Goddamn, this is driving me insane.
I have too much on my mind.
I just wanna blank out.
But I just... I can't.
For the first time in... forever,
I just can't get the racing thoughts to stop.
They're just going faster and faster and faster,
But they aren't going anywhere.
I hate it.
I hate this.
I want everything to just STOP but its not...
Its not.
Things are happening too fast.
I'm getting no where.
I'm just suffocating under all this.
My mind is on overdrive.
I hate it.
I hate this.
I hate feeling helpless like this.
Like I'm not in control...
But I'm not in control.
I can't control ANYTHING...
Not even my own thoughts.
They're controlling me.
And I don't like it.
I hate it.
I hate this.