Tuesday, June 3, 2008 12:27 AM

one last thing

Hey, (removed). I felt entitled to at least some closure with yourself. I didn't really know what to say or how I should feel about... not seeing you again. It's a shame, it fucking sucks. I wish that we could have met under different circumstances, I didn't want to be "the other guy," or the reason behind your anguish. I almost wish that I never spoke to you. I feel like a prick for fucking with what you had. I thought that we should be together, at least for a while, but I wasn't done being with you. I even said to myself that I wouldn't stop trying, until you told me that you never wanted to see me again, and then you sent me a text message that said just that, and it... Well, I hope that everything works out for you, I won't bother you again.

You're truly precious, I hope your life reflects it.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008 9:35 AM

honestly, I was going to send you an e-mail today, I also felt that you deserved closure. I'm sorry things worked out the way they did as well, I like you and I do wish I could see you again. but I know I can't trust myself around you. you didn't cause me a lot of pain, don't feel guilty over that. and I'm glad you talked to me, I wouldn't have wished it any other way. I had fun being with you. I won't regret what we did if you won't either.

I would much rather consider us a strange but special, true, the timing was bad, but being with you was nice. I will never think harshly of you. we were free love at it's best. you were an absolutely perfect muse.

if you feel it appropriate you may sever our contact. I would like to still keep in contact with you, but perhaps that would be too cruel to ask of you…also, don't let this unfortunate situation jade your view of women more so then before. if you make a point of not abusing your good looks, I'm sure you will find a girl who will effortlessly fill you.

with love