It wasn't like I imagined, or what I expected to happen
I hadn't meant for things to turn out this way.
How did this happen?
did this happen?

Staring at the mess I'd made.
The people I hurt.
Their faces clogging my mind.
Making me want to vomit.

Why did it come down to this?
I had been just fine yesterday.
What happened to make me suddenly crack?

I didn't mean to.
I didn't want to.
But, I did.