Why can't I just stop?

When I wake up
When I look in the mirror
When I can't hide it from people
I hate myself

Why can't I just stop?

When I pick up something sharp
When I press it to my skin
When I see the blood
I know I am a failure

Why can't I just stop?

When I tell myself never again
When I promise the people I love
When I almost die
I still do it again

Don't you think if I could stop, I would?

(I'm sorry)