I lay in bed, not knowing what to do
My back hurts, my head hurts, let's say
Every part of me hurts-
It kills to be me.

It hasn't been like this in awhile,
Why is it happening again?
Am I going back to my old life?
I really don't want to.

Guess I'm destined to be this way,
Though I got you,
I'm still me-
Nothing has ever changed.

I may be smiling,
But inside I'm crying.
I'm dancing and singing,
Only to release my pain and distress.