150 calories worth of
Pop Secret 94% fat-free popcorn
seem to have coaxed its way down my throat
trying to sooth the emptiness
that threatens to expose my efforts to
lose a little bit of me
by roaring hungry profanities at
anyone who will listen.
And so I
r u n.
my legs are frantic metronomes
taking my ribcage and other
somewhat beautiful body parts
farther away from the safe haven
of my mother's house that
smells of cat urine and
the popcorn that I burned
(on purpose because I like it
And now I can't
b r e a t h e.
I am hacking up the nothingness that I
so desperately wish to become.
my nose cannot stop twitching, sneezing,
trying to dispel this demon from my head
that feels like it will burst with
all the air I am inhaling
and all the air I am not