Another Hopeful Morning

As I lay in bed last night, all I could do was stare at the four walls surrounding me.
The four walls that you built and painted.
The four walls that you locked me in.
So as I stared at these four walls, all I could do was cry millions of tears.
The millions of tears that you hid so well.
The millions of tears that you surfaced.
And as I cried these millions of tears, all I could think of was my healed and broken heart.
The healed and broken heart that you healed.
The healed and broken heart that you broke.
This healed and broken heart, all it could call for was your name.
The name that picked me up.
The name that dropped me.
And as my healed and broken heart called for your name, all I could long for was your smile.
The smile that lit me up.
The smile that blew me out.
As I longed for your smile, I slowly started to fall into a slumber.
The slumber that you made peaceful.
The slumber that you made harsh.
As I sunk into this slumber, all I could do was slip into my dreams.
The dreams that all my dreams came true.
The dreams that all my dreams turned into reality.
And as my dreams came to an end, my eyes unlocked to another morning.
The morning that you made worth waking up to.
The morning that you made dreading.
So as I woke up to this morning, I hoped, prayed, and wished that this day would be different.

The wish that you shined in.
The wish that you dulled in.
As this day began, all I could do was put on a smile.
The smile that you made real.
The smile that you made impossible to force.
As I put on this smile, all I could do was lie to everyone with its fake magic.
The magic that you made exciting.
The magic that you made boring.
And as I lied to everyone with the smile's fake magic, all I could do was watch the light of the day slowly fade.
The light that you made bright.
The light that you burned out.
And as this day came to an end, I said goodbye to the light, let go of the smile and it's fake magic, watched as my hope drained, slipped back into the four walls, cried another million tears, listened as my heart called for your name, drowned in more dreams, and woke up to another hopeful morning.