Remembrance

Remembrance

I remember

Sitting by you,

Watching you painfully

sigh,

Wondering which one

Would be the last one that

In this bed you would

Breathe.

...

I remember

You coughing

By the hearth of the fire that

Cackled

At your disease of suffering

Like a fool, like you

and your involuntary

Wheeze.

...

I remember

That you never really

Loved me, You

Shouted

All the time, even when you were

Dying, and told me that

I was worthless and I

Cried.

...

I remember

You always leaving for work

In a hurry and never saying

Goodbye

To me, or even to

The children.

'Who's he?' they

Asked

...

I remember

The relatives coming to

Me after you died so they could

Mutter

The words of comfort

For the bereavement

Non-existent. They were but to my ears a

Muffle.

...

I remember

Sitting by your grave,

Where the wind

Howled

At the flowers I ceremoniously placed;

Hard as I tried, no tears could I exhibit.

And the torn petals in the wind

Rustled.