I look across the room

There you stand

You barely acknowledge my existence

I look over with a sarcastic smile

You return a casual smirk

I can feel your arrogance rolling off of you in waves

I despise everything about you

And at the same time I love you

If you were not around

I would be lost

I don't understand why

Or how

I just know

despite the pain

suffering

and drama

you put me through

I love you.

You do not feel the same

I see

Forever cast in a friend role

Wishing to be more than friends

I hope you die

Yet, if you did

I would die

My stupid conflicted heart and mind

Wishes to hear your voice

Your arrogant, obnoxious voice

So that I may sleep in peace

Wishing to feel your arms around me

Your annoyingly perfect arms

So that I may feel at home

Wishing for you to truly see me

With your non functioning brain

So that I may feel my love returned to me

Wishing for you to read this plea

With your oblivious blue green eyes

So that you may see how I feel