a/n:i was not raped.
it's hard to explain.

the pleasure, the terror,
& the absolute excitement
were not enough to keep
my mouth shut
to the outside world.

how could he?
how did he dare?
what did he think he'd achieve
by his disgusting stunt?
despicable.
fuck him.
fuck him like he

(wanted to)
(tried to)
(fucking tore it from me)

fucked me.

a/n: God, I wish it had been a dream…
This is the last I'll ever speak about this.
I'm never, ever going to talk about this again.
I can't, I can't do it.
It's too horrible.
Ask all the questions you want.
Don't be disappointed when they don't get answer more than
"I don't want to talk about it."
Please, don't try to force it from me.
Please… Just leave me alone.