Forever, I promise
The park looks like something out of a fairy tale. Snow falls down lightly, coating the sleeping trees and ground with an almost magical white sparkle. Icicles hang down from the swings on the playground, a frozen kingdom with no one to admire the majesty of it. The snow that I haven't stepped on yet adds to the beautiful illusion and I almost stop walking so I don't ruin it.
The wind picks up and I pull my sweater a little closer to me.
A smile finds its way to my lips. It's not just me anymore. I give my stomache a gentle rub and am responded with a small kick from within. I feel my smile grow into a grin.
The baby, my baby, is the biggest change that's happened to me. The best change that's happened to me.
I will admit that I was terrified when I found out. Who wouldn't be? There was something inside of me. Something I didn't want. How should I get it out? Abortion? Do I do it myself? I was completely hysterical. I went from being scared to crying on the bathroom floor to almost tearing my hair out from how angry I was at myself. Once I calmed down, I started thinking of it a different way: A baby. Someone to hold and love. Something had turned to someone.
Could this someone be part of a family?
Another kick broke through my thoughts.
I sat down on one of the swings and rested both hands on my bloated belly. "What's wrong, little guy? Are you as scared as I am? Don't worry, I'll take care of you."
But who's going to take care of me? I tried to push that thought away but it was persistent. Where am I going? Do I have anywhere to go to? No, I don't.
That's a lie. I still have one person who I can turn to.
Okay, my first story here. Be gentle, it's just the prologue.