dear self,

someday, someone will think you're beautiful without you having to starve yourself.


dear self,

you can always cry on my shoulder.


dear self,

he's not worth it.


dear self,

i'm so proud that you didn't harm yourself over him. your wrists and thighs are pretty without the scars. your heart would be too.


dear self,

you have amazing friends, don't let them slip away because of anorexia or bulimia or depression.


dear self,

i know this is hard, but i've got your back.


dear self,

i wish you understood that not all people are kind or considerate, and you can't change them. don't let them change you.


dear self,

don't conform to their expectations. you are what you want to be.


dear self,

i'll only protect you from your monsters and demons if you let me.


dear self,

just dance.


dear self,

you can't hurt him, or anyone, by hurting yourself. sorry, darling, but that's just dumb.


dear self,

i'm sorry that you can't be beautiful like her. you are beautiful like you.


dear self,

i love you. i'm sorry i don't tell you that more often.


1.20.09