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4/28/04

It surprises me sometimes
how easy a human mind
can crumble.
One wrong word.
A missed step.
Misunderstandings
and you end up here,
in my dwelling.
In the world I live in.
As tears never leave my face.
Every emotion
goes through my confused mind.
More often then not
I feel regret and hatred.
Hatred at myself
for what I have done.
The sins I have committed
I will never forget.
For they are my nightmares
and they are all I have left.
It hits me more every minute
that things are changing.
I'm leaving the life I once knew behind,
but with it everything I love.

All I really feel is rejected
for all that I have done.
I'm sorry I can't be what you want.
I have tried hard,
but now I give up.
I give up on it all.
My hopes and dreams.
I was being silly
and now I realize it.
So I give in.
I know its not like me.
I have never given in before,
but there's always a first.
I know no one cares
that I finally give up,
but it surprises me sometimes.
How easy a human mind
can crumble.
One wrong word,
a missed step,
misunderstandings,
and you end up here
in my dwelling.
In the world I live in.