I never believed that I would fall in love. After many broken hearts and lullabies to myself, I only took comfort in having two people in my life. These were the only two people that mattered to me completely. That was before the Cullens came.
I've suffered a lot, more than one person could ever take, but it all came back to me with one love. The love that lead to many wonderful things, but also complicated my whole entire surroundings. He brought with him everything that I needed, like my own guardian angel. I knew the others would be here, but he gave me what I craved the most.
He made me believe in life and love. All of the doubts and darkness went away when his light came upon me. From then on, it was irresistible.
He changed the way I view things, and my true personality came out. The one before all the grief and aching started. I thought I would turn out stronger, but it made me weaker. It made me unable to trust, unable to believe…but he made me. His love was so powerful that I quickly fell hopelessly for him. Just the simple touch and I knew that I was in deep, deep in over my head.
In my mind, I knew this was too good to be true, a wishful longing. But, he kept reoccurring everyday and every night. He was there for me, no matter what. I was holding on to his heart, and he had mine. My world stopped for him completely. I knew that if this ended, it would be the biggest blow. My heart and soul would be taken over with agony and become blackened with loss. It would spread and I would die a slow and extremely painful internal death. I wouldn't perish, but I would never be able to function the same way again. That I know.