I've never looked forward to anything as much as I'm looking forward to meeting you. I've never seen you before but I know without a doubt that I'll love you unconditionally. No matter what you fdo, no matter what happens, I'll always love you. I never thought I could feel something that would be more important than everything else... Something so important it changed who I am. But since I got pregnant, I have changed. An instinct to take care of myself has kicked in. I don't even want to do all the destructive things I used to do. I know if I eat or drink anything unhealthy or do anything dangerous that won't effect just me anymore. It's amazing the amount of self control I have now that I know I have to protect you. It's something I've never had the willpower to do before, for myself or anyone else. I'm not even afraid of getting blood tests anymore. I just know it's necessary for your health and I want to do it. It heals me so much to feel the love I have for you and to know I can love something more than myself. I may be young, and I may be flawed, but I know I will be a good mother to you. I'll do anything for you. And I think, I hope, that will make up for my lack of experience. Even if I am a bad person... I can still be a good mother. And I promise you, I will be.