Chapter Four; happiness
I didn't know what to do. As the four of us – me, Kevin, Jess, and Mike – sat there, I could barely breathe. I know it's not surprising that Kevin and I are going out. I've gotten used to it. But I'm not 'girlfriend' material. I've never had a boyfriend before. I know Kevin says I should just act normal – like friends – around him, but I cant' feel any sparks. Are relationships usually like this?
I glanced up ad I see Jess giggling as Mike feeds her. Is there ever a moment when I don't get jealous of Jessica?
I continue to eat my spaghetti when I felt something against my hand. I look down and I saw Kevin's hand holding mine. I blush a little. I could feel butterflies in the pit of my stomach. I looked up at him and smiled.
We finished eating and Kevin let go gently. "Um, I'll clear off the trays."
He smiled and then gathered our trays and walked away. Mike saw some of his guy friends at the food court and went to talk a little. Jessica and I sat there and I have to admit that it was a little awkward at first.
Jessica opened her mouth and I was guessing I knew what was coming. Kevin.
"Um… do you think you guys are going too slow?" Jess asked.
I raised my eyebrow. "Uh… no…? Don't you think you and Mike are going a little too fast?" Little? Not even 'little.'
"Fast is better than slow," Jessica grinned.
I rolled my eyes. "Don't worry about me… I'm happy." I smiled.
Jessica sighed. "Okay."
I didn't notice that Kevin came back. He sat down next to me and smiled. I smiled as well. I really was happy. And I didn't care if I was going too slowly. This was my relationship, not Jessica's.
"Um, I'll walk you home," said Kevin.
Jess said bye to us and Mike nodded.
It wasn't so dark. But it was cold. I didn't shiver but my legs were numb and if I didn't focus, I could collapse.
I tried not to meet eye contact with Kevin. I knew my eyes were filled with plead right now, and that would just give myself away. I wasn't going to ask for his jacket. Never….
He's not stupid, or maybe I really was being too obvious. But he takes off his jacket and puts it around me.
"Um…" I start.
"It's okay. I don't want you to catch a cold," he said.
"But what about you?"
"I'm fine." He smiled. He really was nice, sweet, and caring. And I just couldn't believe that he was mine. We were really sharing a moment. His eyes were locked with mine and I didn't bother to pull away.
And then I was getting soaked. I looked away. "Oh!"
"Hurry!" Kevin grabbed my hand and we ran through the rain. We hid under the shed of a drug store. "Are you okay?" He asked.
"Come on," he said and took me into the drug store. The cashier lady was staring at us in disapproval. We were being pretty rude. We're soaked and making a trail of wet footsteps on her clean floor. Kevin led me to the back of the store where the heater was. It was really warm.
"Hey. My heater isn't used for free"
We turned and saw the lady staring at us. "Buy something or get out," she snapped.
"Fine." Kevin pulled out a five with one hand. His other still holding mine.
He led me down an aisle and then stopped by a shelf. I watched him as he grabbed a pack of cigarettes, and then my eyes bulged.
"What are you doing!?" I hissed.
He glared at me. "What?"
He shrugged. Okay, I should be doing what every girlfriend would do, right? I should at least have some protectiveness over Kevin!
"Don't." I snatched the pack out of his hand and put it back on the shelf. "Smoking can give you cancer…. Watch your health, okay?'
He laughed and if he wasn't' my boyfriend, I might've smacked him. "Seriously, Kevin…."
"I know, I know." He smiled and then stared into my eyes. "I don't smoke, Kim."
Well, that's a relief. He moved closer and I winced. W-what was he doing? His face was inches from mine and he grinned. "What do you want to buy?"
My face lit up. "Um… I don't want anything."
He sighed and rolled his eyes. "You heard her, though. 'Buy something or get out.'"
I bit my lip. Okay, I'll make this fast. I looked over and the first thing I saw was a white teddy bear with a pink heart.
Kevin walked over and grabbed it. He looked at me and smiled. "Come on."
I walked to him. I was getting used to this. The fact that he took my hand and led me to the cashier.
"That's very sincere of you," said the lady.
"Huh?" said Kevin.
"Getting something for your girlfriend. I thought you'd be one of those selfish jerks."
"Oh. Uh. Well… definitely not." He was stuttering and I giggled. It was a little cute. "Um, here," he said, handing me the bear.
"Thanks, Kevin," I said, taking it. And right that moment… I swore my heart skipped a beat.