i have lost my words
i have lost the one thing that tied me to this world
the one thing that connected me to people
and made me feel purpose.
i have given up my words
i have given up the only thing that really made me happy
the only thing that gave me hope some days
and gave me my freedom.
i have abandoned my words.
i have abandoned the one thing that tied me to this world,
the only thing that gave me assurance some days,
and kept me from falling.
i have abandoned myself.