Lucky me, No one like me

What do you want me to say?
Don't leave me alone
I miss you already
I want it
I want you
Is that what you wanna hear?

When all I ever do is lie about what's going down
And give you false addresses
When you spend none of your time thinking of me
And I can't get you out of my mind
I can't even focus on the simple things
Seeing you and her, makes me wonder what it would be like
You probably don't even remember me
All you know is I was another to add to the 'In like with you' million

So now I hate myself
For the lies I force feed myself
Like "if you do this, he'll like you"
"just one more time, Just a couple more pounds"

I still want to
Cause maybe if I do someone else will at least like me a bit
Maybe even want to date me
Yes its shallow
But you try being me
Even your boyfriend will agree I'm fat