First Times .

It was the first time I got to see anything.

It was the first time I turned 3.

It was the first time I met this wonderful person called Eric.

It was the first time I confessed my feelings.

It was the first time I got rejected.

It was the first time I felt angry and sad at the same time.

That was when Alex interfered with my life.

It was the first time when he came in the school, and introduced himself to me.

It was the first time he turned popular.

It was the first time someone didn't stop being my friend when they had the opportunity to ditch me.

It was the first time I felt warmth.

It was the first time when I turned 12.

It was the first time I started highschool.

It was the first time that I got so happy that Alex was in the same school and class as me.

It was the first time I had a bestfriend.

It was the first time Alex and I had a 'study date together'

It has never felt so awkward. Maybe because it was called a 'study date'.

It was the first time I made new friends.

It was the first time people said I liked Alex.

It was the first time I ever got annoyed.

It was the first time that year, that it rained.

I smiled.

It was the first time I turned 18.

It was also the first time I got drunk.

It was the first time I went to a bar.

It was the first time I saw Alex make out with a girl.

It was the first time the next day, that Alex announced he had..a girlfriend.

It was the first time I felt pure heartbreak.

It was the first time I didn't know why.

It was the first time I wanted to go through depression.

It was the first time that I truely..felt alone.

I was slowly dieing from the inside of me.

It was the first time I admitted to myself.

I was in love with my bestfriend, Alex.

It was the 1OOth time I went to my locker.

It was the first time in weeks that Alex came over.

"Jennifer. Why are you so..distance ? "

" You're...calling..ME distance ?? "

" You're never around anymore, I hardly see you in class so I sit next to Polly. "

" You've got it allllllll wrong mate..your never around anymore. I asked you to come with me to the park but you were too busy with Polly, I asked you to study with me, but you were too busy with Polly, I asked if you wanted to watch a movie and hang. But no. You're always with Polly. Who is never around now? Alex ? " I stated, near tears.

He stared at me in silence.

" I-I'm s-sorry--"

" Like sorry makes up for the things you've done to me. Seriously Alex, What happened to buying Icecream? Going to the park? Having fun ? ..Or are we just too old for that now ? "

" Wh--"

" You know Alex, don't worry. Just leave me out of your life. I'm fine. Don't worry about me. Just go back to Polly I'm sure she wants to talk to you. "

" Jenni-- "

" Don't Jennifer me. For the last..5 years I've been waiting for you to ask me out and and...and..for the last 5 years I wanted my fairytale ending. With you."

" .. "

" I've had enough. I don't wanna ever see you again Alex Williams. Polly's over there. Have fun."

" JENN-- "

It was the first time I cried, while walking away.

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It was the first time I jigged school because of some..guy.

It was the first time my phone rang so many times.

It was the first time I stayed in bed crying for a whole day.

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I went to school the next morning.

It was the first time I avioded contact with you-know-who.

It was the first time he tried to get my attention, when before..he was the center of my attention.

It was the first time Polly has ever glared as hard as she did to me.

It was the first time in my life, I found a note in my locker saying: I broke up with Polly. I'm really sorry Jennifer. I want to be with you. I loved you ever since primary. Please talk to me. Love, Alex.

It was the first time I felt happy in ages.

But no. I can't do that.

It was the first time I felt...well...I wasn't sure what I felt.

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It was the first time this week, I bumped into..

Alex.

He stared at me with sad eyes.

" Sorry ", I said, walking past him.

" Wait, Jennifer..I'm sorry. I really am. I didn't know what you felt for me..I wasn't sure.."

" It was the first time I ever loved anyone this hard as you Alex. You've blown it for me though...I don't think I could love anyone anymore. "

It was the second time I walked away from him in shame.

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It was the third time it rained this year.

Afterschool, I walked out of the main building..and saw Alex trod slowly in the rain by himself, with no umberlla.

A wave of shame flew past me.

It was the first time I have ever ran in the rain, not caring that people were looking at me.

" Alex.." I whispered.

It was the first time he every actually heard me; and he turned around.

" ..Jennifer..? "

It was the first time I smiled at him.

" ..I love you.. "

We ran to eachother, and..kissed.

It was the first time I have said 'kiss' in a weird way.

It was my first kiss.

It was my first kiss from my first love.

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Epilogue :

It was the first time I ever gotten married.

It was the first time I have ever said I do with love.

It was the first time..I had a girl and a boy as children.

I looked at Alex, sleeping in the bed next to me.

" I love you. " I whispered.

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