curled into a ball,

whole body trembling,

i fiercely keep my eyes shut,

for the fear of the water coming out,

/0/

1, 2, 3,

breathe in,

breathe out,

/0/

i hold it there,

i wonder how long it would take me to die,

i gasp air in,

still thinking,

feeling the same,

/0/

dark clouds my mind,

i want to have courage now,

it's taking over me,

/0/

1, 2, 3,

breathe in,

breathe out,

/0/

i wonder how long it will take you to notice me,

hold it together now,

do you have something to live for?

/0/

my fists,

clenched together tightly,

i wanna give into temptation,

but the bravery isn't coming,

/0/

my nails dig into my palms,

the pain is only minimal to what i feel inside,

i want to cry out,

but the tears are taking its place,

/0/

1, 2, 3,

breathe in,

breathe out,

/0/

would they even care if my heart skipped a beat?

/0/

i want to be useful,

i want to be loved,

does anyone want me anymore?

/0/

i'm falling faster now,

but there's no one to catch me,

it's a hard, cold world,

and i fit right in,

/0/

i want to scream,

but i'm concentrating on not losing it,

on the inside,

/0/

1, 2, 3,

breathe in,

breathe out,

/0/

i think i've maybe lost count,

if i stop breathing,

would you care?

/0/

too many numbers,

too many thoughts,

swirling, swirling,

make them stop!
/0/

i want to soothe myself,

but i enjoy this pain too much,

i scare myself,

but it fits,

/0/

no notes coming,

shot in the heart,

how much more do i got?

/0/

clogged,

blood rushing through me,

pulsing harshly,

i hate this life,

/0/

1, 2, 3,

breathe in,

breathe out,

/0/

i'm still hanging on.