-1Chase's Abortion

1.

I'm one of the first people to know that
Chase is pregnant, and she
doesn't know what to do
about it.

2.
She is no more then twenty,
she whispers that she's
been with her boyfriend
for, like, five years…

3.
This is all on Monday (asleep
at her desk). First trimester
knocking on her eyelids. On
Thursday Justin and I are
arguing about it.

4.
The abortion appointment
is set for 7:30 AM.

5.
He says Chase is gone
and he'll be furious
if I disagree with him.

6.
Dissuade me. Corrupt me.
Face falls.

7.
Door closed, he says:
"You look really upset
right now." The phone
rings.

8.
He leaves for lunch, I
cower in the bathroom,
palm slashes the tiled wall,
I can feel the slap vibrate
up into my wrist.

9.
I feel like I can't breathe.

10.
I send him an e-mail, it says:
"I don't know what to do…"

11.
Next time we see each other he asks
if I want to talk about it further.
He must tell by how fiercely
I've avoided the topic; I tell
him, maybe in a few minutes.

12.
Confronted with conversation,
truly, I'd rather sow my
lips shut then explain
that he's hurt me.

13.
I said he was cruel.
He doesn't look at me.

14.
Afterward, I ask: "Are
we cool?"

15.
He says: "We're always cool!"