Con/Unknown Error is back? Alas! It's been so long since I published something. Hope you like this.
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I was just beginning to heal, just starting to make a new beginning, just starting to forget about what he did to me.
But then you had to bring him up again, didn't you?
You say you think I'm better off without him.
You know nothing.
Can't you see anything in front of you? I've destroyed myself trying to forget him, ruined my life trying to run away from our memories. I'm failing all of my classes because I can't think of anything but him.
I've given up my dreams, buried my hopes, and seek out the most violent, abusive people I can find. I need to feel something other than the pain in my heart and I get it by being abused and mistreated and beaten.
Am I better off without him? With him I had hope. I had a future. I had to get good grades in school so I could get a job and be able to live with him and help us start a family.
I'm not better off without him. I'm a mess, I'm a failure, I can't live without him. I need him. I need someone to help me with my depression and self-loathing, but there's no one else. Depression isn't cool or classy, it's dirty and ugly and nasty and it ruins lives and it ruins people and it drags you down and no one is willing to wade through the muck and just help you through it.
He was the only one who could come through and make me feel better, like I wasn't a faliure, like my life meant something, like I was something other than a waste of space.
Don't you dare say I don't love him. Don't you dare.
I love him, I need him, he's my everything, he's my love, my Angel....
He broke me.
O geez. Did I really write such a sappy piece? I'm usually not a romantic in real life.
(So why do I write so much romantic pieces? Let me get back to you on that.)
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~Con