this smoke fills me

with emptiness

as it gently

passes through.

I feel it enter

though my veins

and yet

i only think of you.

my heart is not

a fucking joke

and you should hold

your laughter.

my eyes are only

watching you

because you're all

they're after.

that day will come

when I will steer

this ship towards

bluer skies,

but even so

my love for you


the less you try.