Betrayal Within
Deep inside my heart
A blazing
whirlwind begins to start
It pushes and pulls like a saw
Cuts
through my heart like its straw
He's better than me
And
that is true
He makes you happy
Is it bad if that makes me
happy?
I can live with a little sadness
Down in my heart
A
little betrayal
Comes within my heart
These feelings are
mixed
Without a doubt
And I'll never begin
To let them
out
And one day if I do,
I'll find out I'm not good enough
for you
Because hey isnt that the way things always go?
The
answers are always no, and no
So tell me why does one
bother
Tell me why do I bother
I can't expect you to feel the
same
On this feeling only I lay a claim
Why do I go and
pour my heart out my fingers
When I know exactly what your going
to say
First my heart and then my tears
From the depths come my
darkest fears
Alone I am and will be
Though I'd rather see
you happy
So I will suffer on days
Where I feel yet no
worth
And tell me why
After all of this
You say your
feelings are not the same
Tell me why the hell it doesnt put me
off
Tell me why I get butterflies when I hear your name
Tell me
why it's your prescence I always notice most
And can you please
tell me why you have the cutest smile?
And tell me why your so
nice
Tell me I'm worthless, turn your heart to ice
Tell me why
I was made this way
And tell me how much skin I've flayed
So
now you know how I feel
And how hard the world's hand can
deal
Maybe one day I'll find comfort
In your happiness
Besides
I never said anything when you were
And I also never said anything
when you weren't gonna be
It's funny how life sets up
situations
It's funny how he put up the roadblocks, how he is cold
as concrete
I'll fake this smile, I'll flash these teeth
I'll
pretend everything is okay
Please be happy and then I will be
Life
is but a fragile piece
From my fingers flow my thoughts like
wisps when I think of you
Of a girl who's hair is as fine as silk,
who's smile is as cute as a puppy, and who's heart is as pure as a
little girl
So read my thoughts, only you will, open only to
you.
I just really thought you should know...