4-15-09

"Bestfriends" I said, and you

shook your head, smiling

face agreeing and

looking ahead.

You told me you misfortunes,

your doubts, and what you dread.

i gave you my

story

watched you walk ahead.

i watched you go, regained

control,

of my emotions and affection

i let go of how i let you,

effect me. stopped showing,

reaction.

Didn't wanna give you,

satisfaction.

now things seem different

i'm trying not to,

care.

you always right here...

where i can see you,

like i can feel you.

slipping slowly back,

into quietness.

you wont talk to me,

anymore.

laugh and joke like nothing is wrong.

But i can see it in your eyes,

it's admirable, seeing you so strong,

but it isn't wrong,

to be hurt

or confused. maybe you feel

used.

like i used to, then abused you

slightly.

I hope you come to the light,

let clarity find,

you.

don't let used love blind,

you.

see the truth behind deceitful eyes.

don't listen to lies.

talk to me, again,

let me be your friend,

if i can be nothing else.

I'll help you through this,

mess,

don't stress

i can take that you'll never,

ever,

want me, like i want

you.

I know you know that too,

but this is about you,

i'moverit

remember?

Maybe i'll have my chance by next december.

Until then i'll help you all i can,

offer you my hand

make you understand,

the masterplan, becoming

more of a man.

Take a stand for your heart,

play this sick game smart,

from the start.

The sad truth is i'll be,

waiting.

I honestly do not know why,

my mind is debating

all the answers and possibilities.

Maybe I am just going

crazy,

will you be the one who,

savesme?

maybe. right now i'll just,

be the one who,

saves you.